Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Butterflies

IN THE TOWN CAR Gil sits in the front seat, dressed sharp. Black shirt, black tie, black jacket. He dresses for every match as if it's a blind date or a mob hit. Now and then he checks his long black hair in the side mirror or rearview. I sit in the back seat with Darren, my coach, an Aussie who always rocks a Hollywood tan and the smile of a guy who just hit the Powerball. For a few minutes no one says anything. Then Gil speaks the lyrics of one of our favorites, an old Roy Clark ballad, and his deep basso fills the car:


Just going through the motions and pretending
we have something left to gain-

He looks at me, waits.
I say, we Can't Build a Fire in the Rain.
He laughs, I laugh. For a second I forget my nervous butterflies.

Butterflies are funny. Some days they make you run to the toilet. Other
days they make you horny. Other days they make you laugh, and long
for the fight. Deciding which type of butterflies you've got going
(monarchs or moths) is the first order of business when you are driving
to the arena. Figuring out your butterflies, deciphering what they say
about the status of your mind and body, is the first step to making them
work for you. One of the thousand lessons I've learned from Gil.


- An excerpt from Open- An Autobiography, Andre Agassi

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

The Trooper



In 1983, Iron Maiden, an English Heavy metal rock band released their version of the song based on Tennyson's poem, The Charge of the Light Brigade, in their album, Piece of Mind. The song was called "The Trooper". It was written by their Bassist and songwriter, Steve Harris.

You take my life but I'll take yours too
You fire your musket but I run you through
So when you're waiting for the next attack
You'd better stand there's no turning back.

The bugle sounds - the charge begins
But on this battlefield no one wins
The smell of acrid smoke and horses breath
As I plunge on into certain death.

O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-ohhh!
O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-ohhh!

The horse he sweats with fear - we break to run
The mighty roar of the Russian guns
And as we race towards the human wall
The screams of pain as my comrades fall.

We hurdle bodies that lay on the ground
And the Russians fire another round
We get so near yet so far away
We won't live to fight another day.

O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-ohhh!
O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-ohhh!

We get so close near enough to fight
When a Russian gets me in his sights
He pulls the trigger and I feel the blow
A burst of rounds take my horse below.

And as I lay there gazing at the sky
My body's numb and my throat is dry
And as I lay forgotten and alone
Without a tear I draw my parting groan.

O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-ohhh!
O-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-ohhh!

- Steve Harris

The Last Of The Light Brigade




Alfred, Lord Tennyson, the then Poet Laureate, wrote evocatively about the battle in his poem The Charge of the Light Brigade.It immediately became hugely popular, even reaching the troops in the Crimea, where it was distributed in pamphlet form. Forty years later Kipling wrote The Last of the Light Brigade, commemorating the visit of the last twenty survivors to Tennyson (then in his eightieth year) gently to reproach him for not writing a sequel about the way in which England was treating its old soldiers.


There were thirty million English who talked of England's might,
There were twenty broken troopers who lacked a bed for the night.
They had neither food nor money, they had neither service nor trade;
They were only shiftless soldiers, the last of the Light Brigade.

They felt that life was fleeting; they knew not that art was long,
That though they were dying of famine, they lived in deathless song.
They asked for a little money to keep the wolf from the door;
And the thirty million English sent twenty pounds and four !

They laid their heads together that were scarred and lined and grey;
Keen were the Russian sabres, but want was keener than they;
And an old Troop-Sergeant muttered, "Let us go to the man who writes
The things on Balaclava the kiddies at school recites."

They went without bands or colours, a regiment ten-file strong,
To look for the Master-singer who had crowned them all in his song;
And, waiting his servant's order, by the garden gate they stayed,
A desolate little cluster, the last of the Light Brigade.

They strove to stand to attention, to straighen the toil-bowed back;
They drilled on an empty stomach, the loose-knit files fell slack;
With stooping of weary shoulders, in garments tattered and frayed,
They shambled into his presence, the last of the Light Brigade.

The old Troop-Sergeant was spokesman, and "Beggin' your pardon," he said,
"You wrote o' the Light Brigade, sir. Here's all that isn't dead.
An' it's all come true what you wrote, sir, regardin' the mouth of hell;
For we're all of us nigh to the workhouse, an' we thought we'd call an' tell.

"No, thank you, we don't want food, sir; but couldn't you take an' write
A sort of 'to be continued' and 'see next page' o' the fight?
We think that someone has blundered, an' couldn't you tell 'em how?
You wrote we were heroes once, sir. Please, write we are starving now."

The poor little army departed, limping and lean and forlorn.
And the heart of the Master-singer grew hot with "the scorn of scorn."
And he wrote for them wonderful verses that swept the land like flame,
Till the fatted souls of the English were scourged with the thing called Shame.

O thirty million English that babble of England's might,
Behold there are twenty heroes who lack their food to-night;
Our children's children are lisping to "honour the charge they made - "
And we leave to the streets and the workhouse the charge of the Light Brigade!

- Rudyard Kipling

The Charge Of The Light Brigade




This poem was written by Sir Alfred Lord Tennyson to memorialize a suicidal charge by light cavalry over open terrain by British forces in the Battle of Balaclava (Ukraine) in the Crimean War (1854-56). 247 men of the 637 in the charge were killed or wounded. Britain entered the war, which was fought by Russia against Turkey, Britain and France, because Russia sought to control the Dardanelles. Russian control of the Dardanelles threatened British sea routes.


Half a league half a league,
Half a league onward,
All in the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred:
'Forward, the Light Brigade!
Charge for the guns' he said:
Into the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.

'Forward, the Light Brigade!'
Was there a man dismay'd ?
Not tho' the soldier knew
Some one had blunder'd:
Theirs not to make reply,
Theirs not to reason why,
Theirs but to do & die,
Into the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.

Cannon to right of them,
Cannon to left of them,
Cannon in front of them
Volley'd & thunder'd;
Storm'd at with shot and shell,
Boldly they rode and well,
Into the jaws of Death,
Into the mouth of Hell
Rode the six hundred.

Flash'd all their sabres bare,
Flash'd as they turn'd in air
Sabring the gunners there,
Charging an army while
All the world wonder'd:
Plunged in the battery-smoke
Right thro' the line they broke;
Cossack & Russian
Reel'd from the sabre-stroke,
Shatter'd & sunder'd.
Then they rode back, but not
Not the six hundred.

Cannon to right of them,
Cannon to left of them,
Cannon behind them
Volley'd and thunder'd;
Storm'd at with shot and shell,
While horse & hero fell,
They that had fought so well
Came thro' the jaws of Death,
Back from the mouth of Hell,
All that was left of them,
Left of six hundred.

When can their glory fade?
O the wild charge they made!
All the world wonder'd.
Honour the charge they made!
Honour the Light Brigade,
Noble six hundred!

- Alfred Lord Tennyson

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Srishtee se pehle sat nahi tha...


Bharat Ek Khoj(Hindi for The Discovery Of India) was a 53 episode serial that dramatically unfolded the 5000 years old history of India, from the beginning to the time of Independence, 1947. This was created by the director, producer and writer, Shyam Benegal in 1988 from the book written by famous historian and the first prime minister of India, Pandit Jawaharlal Nehru, named THE DISCOVERY OF INDIA. The book written is an exploration into different eras of Indian History; Political cultural. The book is a must read for all the history students. The series that was made from this, Bharat Ek Khoj was a unique combination of multicultural, multiethnic and multireligious communities. The episodes sometimes used the technique of a documentary and at other times, drama.

The Title song of Bharat Ek Khoj was, Srishtee se pehle.... which is so far the best composition I have ever heard. The lyrics have a very deep meaning.

It talks about the genesis of the Earth. The time when it was the beginning when divinity in his splendor manifested as the sole Lord of Land, Skies, Water, Space and that beneath , he upheld the Earth and the heavens.

The Song goes like this...

Srishtee se pehle sat nahin thaa, asat bhi nahin
Antariksh bhi nahin, akash bhin nahin thaa
chhipaa thaa kyaa kahaan, kisne dhakaa thaa
us pal to agam, atal jal bhi kahaan thaa

Srishtee kaa kaun hai kartaa
Kartaa hai vaa akartaa
Oonche aakash mein rahtaa
Sada adhyaksh banaa rahtaa
Wahin sachmuch mein jaantaa..Yaa nahin bhi jaanataa
Hai kisi ko nahin pataa, nahin pataa,
Nahin hai pataa, nahin hai pataa

Weh tha hiranyagarbh srishti se pehle vidyamaan
Wahi to saare bhoot jaat ka swami mahaan
jo hai astitvamaana dharti aasmaan dhaaran kar
Aise kis devta ki upasana karein hum avi dekar

Jis ke bal par tejomay hai ambar
Prithvi hari bhari sthapit sthir
Swarg aur sooraj bhi sthir
Aise kis devta ki upasana karein hum avi dekar

Garbh mein apne agni dhaaran kar paida kar
Vyapa tha jal idhar udhar neeche upar
Jagaa chuke vo ka ekameva pran bankar
Aise kis devta ki upasana karein hum avi dekar

Om ! Srishti nirmata swarg rachiyata purvaj raksha kar
Satya dharma palak atul jal niyamak raksha kar
Phaili hain dishayen bahu jaisi uski sab mein sab par
Aise hi devta ki upasana kare hum avi dekar
Aise hi devta ki upasana kare hum avi dekar

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Peace Love Empathy, Kurt Cobain





This poem is very dear to me as NIRVANA was my start band when I started listening to rock music. And i quite like it now also though I now no more listen to a lot of punk rock. But I always loved what so ever Kurt had to sing, and one of my buddies gave me this poem and I guess I can pay a tribute to Cobain by at least posting it here. The poem is anonymously written by some random person , who surely thought Kurt Cobain was GOD!!! Have fun!! PEACE \m/


Kurt Cobain is alive and well..
i saw him in a 7-11 down in hell....
i gazed at him with a long deep stare..
he looked back at me and then declared...
"you gullable people think i'm dead,
when never a bullet shot through my head....
and here i am happy in my own sweet hell,
this is the place where i like to dwell...
never will i ever return to earth..
for i have hated it ever since birth.....
no reunion with me because
you can remember me the way i was....
for i do not wish for any more of the pain"
peace, love, and empathy, Kurt Cobain...

Saturday, August 29, 2009

The Real Rock Star


















I was in my 8th grade and me with a few friends from school were excited for our school trip. The day had finally arrived and we were happy and enjoying our selves a lot. This was the age when we have an urge to experiment with everything and at the same time want to explore the unknown, well, I was surprisingly not from the lot who would go out and try the things life had to offer, rather I was more on the observant side, I liked to observe the psyche of the people. And this trip was the perfect way to do so, so I was all set to explore.

On our way we stopped at a place which was a small place for the drivers to eat and halt for sometime. I along with my friends got down , as just the aroma of the food around made us hungry. We got down and were waiting for the food to come and passing time. In the midst of all the singing and the enjoyment, there came a eunuch("hijra" in hindi). As I saw her approaching, for a second, I panicked. Our eyes met and suddenly I started praying for her not to come and sit next to me. The next moment I saw was that she was sitting right next to me on the bench. My prayers were not enough I guess.

She was silent and paid no heed to the reactions. The guys around started to bully her and tease her, calling names and laughing at her. I was still in a state of total panic. My completely conditioned mind didn't at all want her to sit besides me, but in vain.

I was scared and petrified by the fact that she would either ask for money or rob me, but I didn't quite like the guys making fun of her either. Yet my completely conditioned mind made me grab my bag lying besides me and I kept it in my laps and held it tightly. She noticed it and gave me a smile, a gesture that it was all okay to keep my bag down and that she wasn't looking for some money from me. That was the moment I felt really selfish of myself at the same time lame enough to do anything at all, yet I felt like there was a deep connection between the both of us again, and, for a moment I kept looking at her spellbound.

In the meantime, my class teacher who was a nun, Sister Monti Gonsalves, approached her and started to converse with her. For a moment I was relieved as it felt like, she was an angel who came to my rescue, but the next moment, I saw that she (the eunuch) had completely been broken into pieces. She was hurt. It felt as if there was a scar which was deep trodden and her pain seemed to have no end.

With a gulp in her throat and tears streaming down her face, she took out some gold from her blouse and began explaining the reasons for this plight of hers. She said that she was just about to enter her adolescence when her parents got to know that unlike her other siblings , she wasn't normal. She was forced to leave her home and also the village. Her parents abandoned her.

While she was forced to leave the village, her parents laid her with the responsibility of getting all her sisters married. She had 8 sisters and she was the one to take care of all of them financially. It felt like, she was being punished for being born as a eunuch. But she was fine with the fact that she was at least of that much help to her family, and she explained the significance of the gold she was carrying with her.

She explained that it was her sister's wedding and she was going to her village after half a decade as her sister was getting married, and she was the one who was responsible for her sister's well being. With tear filled eyes she continued, that when she reaches her village, a small place near mangalore, she would hand over the gold to her childhood friend from outside the village, as she wasn't allowed to enter her village, nor the wedding because she was a "hijra" !

Still sobbing she said that she wanted to be by her family at this time and see her sister get married. She held sister Monti's hand and cried her heart out. It was then that I was completely shaken by this reality of her life.

I don't know what happened after that to her but I was into tears and it was then that I realized that, how does it feel like when you have nothing to give, yet you give away all you have, for those who mean a lot to you and for those to whom you are as good as dead. She dedicated her whole life in seeing her sisters get the best in the worlds without expecting even once , to be accepted by her family. Its easy to give when you have but what if you don't have a penny for you and still have this big heart and a smile on the face, I guess that does it all, may be that did it all for her too, a heart of gold and a smile on her face.

It was 1998 then and today, after 11 years, I think all her sisters would have gotten married. She definitely would be having a much bigger smile on her face, the one, that would reach till her eyes.

For some she is a hijra,chakka,kinner and for a few she is a eunuch, transgender,sixer,but, for me,a "ROCK STAR". You can never imagine, someone so alien can create such a massive impact on your life, in just a few moments you spend with them. Yes, she did change me for sure. Today, I might not spare a change for a beggar but I would definitely stop by to spare a change for the eunuchs on the traffic signals. We can do a lot by these random acts of kindness not necessarily by helping them monetarily, we can just start by respecting the fact that they exist. Yes, they are not "IT" or a "HE", they are "SHE" ! They like to be addressed as "her" and "she", I think we can start by calling them with that!! :)

Sunday, August 23, 2009

A Drunken Man's Praise Of Soberiety!

COME swish around, my pretty punk,
And keep me dancing still
That I may stay a sober man
Although I drink my fill.

Sobriety is a jewel
That I do much adore;
And therefore keep me dancing
Though drunkards lie and snore.
O mind your feet, O mind your feet,
Keep dancing like a wave,
And under every dancer
A dead man in his grave.
No ups and downs, my pretty,
A mermaid, not a punk;
A drunkard is a dead man,
And all dead men are drunk.

William Butler Yeats.

She Dwelt Among Untrodden Ways

This was one of my favorite poems, which i used to keep reading over and over again, and wonder, what would Lucy be doing whole day and why did no one turn up to her grave and what if some day someone dies anonymous, no soul to care for, no one to weep...


SHE dwelt among the untrodden ways

Besides the springs of Dove,
Maid whom there were none to praise
And very few to love:

A violet by a mosy tone
Half hidden fron the eye!
---Fair as a star when only one
Is shining in the sky

She lived unknown , and a few could know
When Lucy ceased to be;
But she is in her grave, and, oh,
The difference to me!

William Wordsworth.

Stopping By Woods On A snowy evening!

I feel like retrospecting these days, and that reminds me of all the days gone by when "getting high" meant on to the swings, when "dad" was the only hero I knew of, when "dad's shoulder" was the highest place on earth, when the only thing that could hurt were "skinned knees", when only things broken were your "toys" and when "goodbye" meant only till tomorrow... and when I think of all these, I feel life has changed a lot from then to now.. But one thing that hasn't yet changed is my love for good writings and poetry, the surreal world it drags me into, the never ending fantasies and the beautiful world it used to create in front of my eyes, and I used to dip myself into that world for hours together...world created by masters like Frost, Blake, Yeats...and today, thanks to Larry Page and Sergey Brin that I can again go back to those times and Live those moments again and quote them here and share it with all the people who love to get lost into their fanatasies!!!

I would start by my fav poem...

"Stopping by Woods on a snowy evening"

Whose woods these are I think I konw.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bell a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Robert Frost.

Friday, August 15, 2008

The Common Man

The Common Man does not speak.H has never spoken.He is a silent but wise spectator.Even the word 'spectator' is inappropriate for him.He is really a witness, a saakshi,to all that happens around him.To the discerning eye,his raised brow itself is the great indictment.To the sensitive mind,his melancholy expression is the worst form of chastisement.The Common Man is a mirror that never distorts.he is the most reliable barometer of our ethical and moral pretensions;yet he never sermonizes.
Others react to him with an uncalled for vehemence.He makes the hypocrite,the corrupt,the insincere,the pompous and the perfidious insecure.He has been around for more than 60 years.his appearance has remained the same for all these years.Chronology is not his concern.He is the gentle, but unwavering guardian of human worth and quality.He is eternal India.

Only one other person shares his passion for goodness and empathy:The Mahatma.To say that he is a miniaturized version of Mahatma would not be an exaggeration.He remains poor,not because he glorifies poverty ,but because he is capable of boundless empathy.He has the intelligence and the will to be the richest man in the world,but desists from doing so because means are more important to him then ends.

But why this vow of silence,people wonder.He remains silent,not because he is unsociable,smug,arrogant or diffident.Rather,the lack of speech symbolizes the silence of mind and the spirit.Amidst all the din that politicians,bureaucrats,moralizers,machines and vehicle create ,the Common Man baulks from adding to the decibel levels of the world.

Another year in his life is about to come to an end.He looks forward to a new year.He is never cynical,though he has every reason to be so.He cannot understand why some people create such a fuss about a temple instead of concentrating on their jobs and living simple ordinary lives.It is beyond him why those who have a great deal of wealth and opportunity need to shortchange the dead and trade in coffins.

The Common Man is a firm believer in the tenacity of the human spirit.It puzzles him as to how a few demolished towers can destroy human resilience itself.He is often amused by the juvenile confidence of the terrorist,the suicide bomber and the criminal.This is because he knows that concepts such as freedom,civility,decency,goodness and moderation are far greater than evil.The sword he knows, might win the battle today,but the pen and the song usually rewrite these victories as defeats.

All this is,of course,the very stuff of politics.Like all wise men,the Common Man is more intrigued by simpler questions.Here is a sample of such questions.Why do people not use garbage bins and instead litter the entire landscape around them?Why are our roads in a perpetual state of disrepair?Why is is so difficult to provide people with drinking water, sanitation and clean air?Why do people depend on the government for everything?Why do people give and take bribes?Why is quality education not universal?One reason why people prefer bombs to schools?Why are politicians so self-centered and self-righteous?

The answers are inherent in the questions.Yet, the Common Man does not despair of asking them repeatedly.We do not know if the Common Man is believer or not.His iconic form,created by a god among cartoonists, betrays nothing about his religious or spiritual beliefs.He embodies prayer,place of worship and holy book.His credo is simple and uncomplicated: Be awake,aware and vigilant.He is his own leader and follower. He is at once a supreme individual and the member of the community.HE IS US.WE, THE PEOPLE.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

COlored!!!

Hey , this poem was nominated as the best poem of 2005, written by an African Kid.....

When i born, i black.
When i grow up i Black.
When i go in sun i Black.
When i scared i Black.
When i sick i Black &
When i die , i still Black....
And u white fella...
When u born u Pink.
When u grow up u White.
When u go in sun u Red.
When u cold u Blue.
When u scared u Yellow.
When u sick u Green.
and when u Die u Gray.... & u calling me COLORED ???

GLOBALISATION!!!

Question: What is the truest definition of Globalization?
Answer: Princess Diana's death.

Question: How come?
Answer: An English princess with an Egyptian boyfriend crashes in a
French tunnel,
driving a German car with a Dutch engine, driven by a Belgian who
was drunk
on Scottish whisky, followed closely by Italian Paparazzi, on
Japanese motorcycles;
treated by an American doctor, using Brazilian medicines. This is
sent to you by
Indian, using Bill Gates 's technology, and you're probably reading
this on your
computer, that use Taiwanese chips, and a Korean monitor, assembled
by
Bangladeshi workers in a Singapore plant, transported by Pakistan
lorry-drivers,
hijacked by Indonesians, unloaded by Sicilian longshoremen, and
trucked to you by

Mexican illegals.....

That, my friend, is Globalization !!!!

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Afterall life is all about Insanity....

20 WAYS TO MAINTAIN A HEALTHY LEVEL OF INSANITY

1. At lunch time, sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and point a
hair dryer at passing cars. See if they slow down.
2. Page yourself over the intercom. Don't disguise your voice.
3. Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want Fries
with that.
4. Put your garbage can on your desk and label it "IN".
5. Put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks. Once everyone has gotten
over their caffeine addictions, switch to espresso.
6. In the memo field of all your checks, write "for smuggling
diamonds".
7. Finish all your sentences with "in accordance with the prophecy".
8. Don't use any punctuation.
9. As often as possible, skip rather than walk.
10. Order a Diet Water whenever you go out to eat - with a serious
face.
11. Specify that your drive-through order is "to go".
12. Sing along at the opera.
13. Put mosquito netting around your work area and play tropical
sounds all day at work.
14. Go to a poetry recital and ask why the poems don't rhyme.
15. Five days in advance, tell your friends you can't attend their
party because you're not in the mood.
16. Have your coworkers address you by your wrestling name, Rock
Bottom.
17. When the money comes out the ATM, scream "I won! I won!"
18. When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot
yelling, "Run for your lives, they're loose!!"
19. Tell your children over dinner "due to the economy, we are going
to have to let one of you go."
20. And the final way to keep a healthy level of insanity: read this yourself or
to someone to make them smile and laugh. Its called therapy.